It’s been over four months since I last updated. Understandably, I’ve been very busy learning, working and having a lot of fun. I’ve seen a number of people in this time, but there are some who stick out as catalyst to my growth.
This last week I saw someone who Miss Tulsi and I had sessioned with in the past. I was mostly watching, as she worked in a heavy role playing anal session with whom I now refer to as “my little mess maker”. His kink was quite incestual and be it taboo, I find a lot of enjoyment in delving into this part of myself and others. The forbidden is sexy. And there is nothing more forbidden than blood relatives. Being the older female aggressor was more natural than it should have been.
Good ol’ Nippleclamps came back in. I consider Nippleclamps my favorite regular. There’s a lot of sexual tension underlying our time together. It’s become a highlight when I see him and get to safely push those limits he sets up. When he comes to see me it usually feels as if he’s sticking his hand on the stove, but afraid to get burned. Adventurous yet, timid I’d call him. I’ve learned a lot about RESPECTING others boundaries in my time with him. I’ve learned how delicate and how strong we can be. I’ve learned to scale back my eager desires in order to develop a more rewarding dynamic. Not all play needs to be pain, blood and cum as I like. It can be soft, sensual, new and strange. Nippleclamps has taught me to appreciate different avenues in play.
And then there’s my friend of a friend, I’ll call Pony (for unrelated purposes). We’ve played in sessions, at parties, and become friends before anything. I can’t place my finger on why I take such interest in his diaper fetish, but I do. It’s, in fact, always been a strange, unknown place to me playing with ABs and those who are diaper fetishist. But I enjoy the sheer reaction I get from this person. Enjoyment, release, no-nonsense, handed over trust.
As of this month, I am no longer an apprentice but a true and stride, bona fide Dominatrix. I know there is so much more to explore and master, but I am more than ever still in love with what I do. I’ve never found more of a place to be myself than I have in the title and shoes of Miss Quinn.